Saying Goodbye

Casey stayed overnight at Gailor with no improvement shown by this morning. We were super happy to see her and she was very expressive and lovey about seeing us too. We missed her throughout the night. Last night we started a GoFundMe since we knew we might be seeing a specialist and that the overnight hospitalization quote was between $300-500. This morning vet suggested that if we wanted to keep trying we take her to Blue Pearl to see a specialist because there was something they were just missing. Unsure if Shamrock would help us cover the bill or not, we headed to the specialist this morning as an emergency.

 I offered her canned Wellness in the car and she seemed very hungry. We were hungry too and stopped through McD's drive through. Casey was meowing at Jacek very loudly while he at chicken nuggets. Thinking my food might be a bit healthier for her, I offered her grilled chicken and she didn't want any. She kept meowing at Jack and so we peeled the outer layer off a nugget and she ate a piece! We gave her a few bites and she devoured them. We didn't care what she ate as long as she ate because she is only 4.5 lbs.

Long story short, the vet at Blue Pearl said that after an ultrasound and some blood work it appears as though Casey has lymphoma all through her GI tract with a bleeding mass. She also has pancreatitis. She said it is unlikely that it is anything else but if we want them to get a thorough sample they would have to put her under anesthesia which she might not survive. If it is lymphoma, even with chemo treatment she could live another 6 months and just drag out her pain. Also, she appears to be a lot older than we thought. In her opinion, it was not a bad idea to euthanize her but she left the decision up to us. Jacek and I both teared up and so did the vet. We took a few minutes to really decide what we wanted to do.

We decided to bring her home for one more night of chicken, garden time and snuggles and give her everything she wants. She is chilling out in the backyard now after a very stressful day. Jacek and I are preparing a space for her to be buried in the backyard after we bring her home tomorrow. Blue Pearl gave us some low dosage morphine for her to reduce her pain for the next 24 hours.

I have literally spent nearly all my money with $1.71 left in my checking and 58 cents left in my savings. It was worth it to know. Tomorrow Jacek will pay for the euthanasia.  Not a fun thing to pay for.

For those who have donated to our GoFundMe to help save Casey, we are willing to refund the money as it has not been withdrawn yet. We will keep our GoFundMe up in case someone else is willing to donate to help us recover expenses. It seems like a morbid thing to ask and yet I have no shame about it. I will offer bigger gifts in return for donations. Basically I will offer rewards at cost or below to help with the financial recovery.

I have never seen Jacek cry but today I did. He is the best partner I could ever have. He has the hugest heart and shares equal passion for circus, kitties, art, traveling, thrift stores and gardening with me.

~Ember
www.gofundme.com/caseywonderkitty

At Blue Pearl getting our snuggle on.

Outside in the garden after a stressful day.